Turning a Corner

It’s nearly 11:00 and I really should be in bed, but I had to tell you this!

After about a week of restless sleeping, last night was great. I slept like a rock! But it made it very difficult to get up this morning. A couple hours of consciousness and two cups of coffee didn’t make much of a dent in the heavy fog that enveloped me.

As I went about my day I kept thinking there was something significant about today – June 2nd. A tickle in the back of my mind which I just attributed to the mental sludge I waded though. There’s a lot going on at work right now – two weeks of preschool camps; gearing up for Kids’ Camp; services starting up in the new building this Sunday – I decided it was the organized chaos of the many activities.

And then I received the following text message from my friend, Beth:

Cancer sucks. Remembering your first chemo tx. I’m so glad it’s behind you. You are a champion, my friend… Love you bunches.


That was it!! That’s what I was forgetting to remember. Four years ago today I had my first chemotherapy treatment. This is the first time in that four years I haven’t thought about or even remembered what was then a myriad of significant dates related to my cancer.

It may not seem like a big thing, but to me it’s huge. Poor Beth felt bad for reminding me, but I’m glad she did. It felt good to realize I had forgotten just why June 2nd was significant. I’m no longer a cancer patient, I haven’t been for a long time. But it’s only been the last nine months or so that I’ve actually felt like something other than a breast cancer survivor. Today only served to prove to myself I’m really moving on.

Oh, and Beth. I love you bunches, too!!

Cross-posted at Mothers with Cancer

12 Comments

  1. Terri on June 3, 2009 at 12:31 am

    Congrats on the 4 years. Time does fly, whether you are having fun or not!

  2. His Girl on June 3, 2009 at 12:43 am

    every single milestone is significant! even the milestone of not thinking about all the milestones!Glory to God!

  3. Becky on June 3, 2009 at 2:21 am

    Praising the Lord for your forgotten milestone and the fact that 4 years have passed since! WOO HOO!

  4. God's Guitar Girl on June 3, 2009 at 8:23 am

    Dittos on all-the-above. Milestones can be a real PITB sometimes, but the nice thing about them is that they are discrete moments, not meant to drag on forever. The sense of moving on can be so empowering!

  5. beans on June 3, 2009 at 1:19 pm

    you have been through a lot friend and I am so glad to see you on the other side!glad you are realizing the freedom of it all. see you sunday!

  6. Gretchen on June 3, 2009 at 3:31 pm

    How wonderful that it's behind you, and that you have friends like Beth who can walk thru the mire with you and celebrate with you.And you ARE a champion.

  7. The Daily Bee on June 3, 2009 at 8:04 pm

    Happy Forgotten June 2nd! 😉

  8. Lynilu on June 4, 2009 at 2:29 pm

    That's who we have friends …. to help us be aware and to support through life. Congratulations on your health and may you next year forget it again without the side effects!

  9. CindyS on June 5, 2009 at 6:00 am

    Yay!! You my friend are a survivor but you are so much more than that. Congratulations on the first day of the rest of your life!!CindyS

  10. Dennis Pyritz, RN on June 5, 2009 at 10:50 am

    Great blog! I added you to my blogroll, Cancer Blog Links at http://www.beingcancer.netTake care, Dennis

  11. Dennis Pyritz, RN on June 8, 2009 at 4:04 pm

    Open invitation to you and your readers to participate in the Being Cancer Book Club. This month we are discussing “The Last Lecture” by Randy Pausch. “…the lecture he gave … was about the importance of overcoming obstacles, of enabling the dreams of others, of seizing every moment (because “time is all you have…and you may find one day that you have less than you think”). It was a summation of everything Randy had come to believe. It was about living.” Monday is Book Club day; Tuesday Guest Blog and Friday Cancer News Roundup. Also check out Cancer Blog Links containing almost 200 blog links and Cancer Resources with 230 referenced sites, both divided into disease categories. Please accept this invitation to join our growing cancer blogging community at http://www.beingcancer.netTake care, Dennis

  12. SeaSpray on July 7, 2009 at 11:45 am

    Jen -that's wonderful! When you're not thinking about it..that is a sign you've moved on.God Bless you. 🙂

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