I was tagged by both Devonna and Jodi to give 5 truths. This was really hard at first because I couldn’t think of anything that people maybe didn’t already know. But the deeper I looked, the easier it became. And scarier. Especially because I hate being vulnerable.
So here are five of the many truths I thought about:
#1 – I don’t like talking on the phone. Every now and then I enjoy talking to someone on the phone, but for the most part I’d much rather email. Most people think I’m a pretty chatty person – and I can be. But the older I get the quieter I’m becoming.
#2 – I always thought of myself as a patient and selfless person. I’m starting to realize this is not true and I don’t like this about me.
#3 – No matter how hard I try not to, I have an irrational sense of guilt over increasing my daughter’s risk of breast cancer. Before me we had no family history of the disease. Nearly a year to the day after my diagnosis my mother was diagnosed. On one hand that has relieved my guilt a little. On the other hand, however, it just increases my daughter’s risk even more.
#4 – I feel like I’m sort of good at a lot of things, but not really good at anything. I quit work as a legal assistant nearly 12 years ago and did some medical transcribing from home for a while. I’ve been thinking about going back to work – at least part time – but I have no idea what I’m even qualified to do anymore. My secret dream is to become a published author – preferably preteen historical fiction. But that’s an awfully lofty goal and chances are it’s one I’ll never meet.
#5 – I love how anesthesia makes me feel. You know when they tell you to count backwards and you say, “100, 99, 98,” and the next thing you know you’re in a completely different room and the nurse is asking how you feel? I LOVE that! I probably could have easily become a drug addict if I’d had the slightest inclination.